Choosing To Accept My Current State Of Depression & Simply Witness it.

A story about being depressed the second time around and choosing to surrender to it.

Growing up I struggled with depression — even though I couldn’t name it. I felt all of the symptoms but without the label, which didn’t make it any less real.

I would argue that this is the case for most people — not knowing that what they are feeling is depression. It could also be that they are in denial about it, maybe they are optimists or maybe they are fearful that if they acknowledge they are depressed, they will never be able to get out.

Thats what depression feels like when you’re in the thick of it — like a bottomless pit.

However, I have been there before and I’ve come out of it. The beauty about depression, is that when I was able to overcome it, the other side was beautiful — I levelled up. I found myself up on a beautiful fluffy white cloud and with my newfound raised awareness I was able to look back upon that time in your life as if it was a huge (in my case) storm cloud.

It took a long time to notice the storm that I was remaining in — but bit by bit, I was able to see it, know that it was temporary, but only If I chose to make the trek to sunnier land.