Lately, I’ve Felt Insecure & Jealous In My Relationship — I Finally Hacked It

I feel like I’m back in high school lately, constantly thinking my boyfriend is cheating — I haven’t felt this way since my teenage years and it's not a good feeling. I keep trying to fight it because it feels so alien to me — I am not a jealous person (unless you have like, really, really silky hair, that's my dream and I will be hella jealous of you). Jokes aside, just this past week, I finally realized why it’s happening and I’m sharing it with you in case you’re struggling with the same thing.

A little back story: I’ve been with my boyfriend for two years now and we started out with the classic honeymoon phase, head over heels in love, unable to keep our hands off each other. Call it love bombing, the honeymoon phase, call it what you want — I just call it falling in love and feeling alive again.

I had come from a four-and-a-half-year relationship that was filled with zero passion. He was my best friend and still is, but we were basically roommates the entire time. We tried couples therapy to ignite some chemistry between us, but nothing helped. Why did I stay? Because it was the first time I felt safe. However, I came to realize that passion was something I craved, something I required. This is either something you have with someone, or you don't. For us? It wasn’t there, so a friendship was the better option.

While my ex and I were discussing our next steps, I was completed side-swiped and swept off my feet when I met my…